I had a revelation several weeks ago: I have become an internet junkie rather than a TV junkie. I never thought this would happen... ever! I grew up watching TV, I was obsessed with TV. I had my 2-3 shows that I would watch each night of the week, and I would freak if I missed any of them, thank goodness for the invention of the DVR, b/c I used to tape everything I would miss, and that was a pain. Buffy, Angel, Dawson's, Felicity, Heroes, Friends, Biggest Loser, you name it, I watched it. The previous list is quite meager. I won't bore you with the whole list, mostly b/c I can't for the life of me remember all of them either.
I remember the day I was in the library, surrounded by
*Disclaimer: My husband didn't want to get rid of the TV, just the cable. We would still have the TV to watch movies (and more importantly, for him to play his Xbox).
But something happened recently, that I cannot explain. For someone who is so completely obsessed with TV, I have not really cared about it for the past year. And here's the even bigger revelation: It's been quite nice actually. I never thought I'd ever admit to that. The Husband has always been the internet guru, he could and does spend hours upon hours on the internet each day just searching around. I like it, I use it, I find it useful, but I never was entertained by just hitting the search button and being taken to random sites.
However, I think getting pregnant has kinda changed things. I started searching ideas for showers, and nurseries, and I was getting sent website suggestions from my good friend H, who is the queen of awesome finds on the internet, and I just got hooked! I can't wait to get onto the internet when I wake up in the morning, the second I get home from work or church, and I could spend the rest of the evening in front of the computer now.
One thing I find interesting about this, one would think that this has just transferred my laziness from one object to another. However, I have actually found, here's revelation number three, that it is making me more motivated than I've ever been before. Don't get me wrong, I'm still a lazy person, and I will always have good intentions that are never met, but reading all these blogs of other mother's and what their days look like is actually quite motivating. It is making me want to be the perfect mom.
This week I have gotten the dishes done quickly, which is the worst chore for me, I HATE dishes! I've done several loads of laundry, which I also loathe. Today, instead of just shoving my groceries into the fridge as I usually do, I decided to clean out all the outdated/moldy items, whereupon I discovered some nasty spills and messes in the fridge, and then, instead of leaving them, I actually cleaned the fridge.... I took a rag and cleaned the fridge, I have NEVER done that before. I don't know what came over me. Now my fridge looks so pretty with all my new, fresh, unmoldy food. And I love it. I feel like I've accomplished so much.
This is great news for me, b/c I have always wanted to be a mother, but I've always been severely worried b/c I recognize that I am an extremely lazy and selfish person. And I know you can't be lazy and selfish in order to be a good parent, so I usually fear for my poor children's future. This new turn gives me hope.
*Update: The Husband ended up not getting rid of cable, and I'm actually the one who has suggested maybe getting rid of it to save money once Abigail gets here, and he's the one who said no to that. WHAT?! Crazy! I know! I'm sure I'd be fine without it, it'd be an adjustment, but I'd get used to it. But in all honesty, I'm glad I won't have to miss out on You're Cut Off on Monday nights.
Were there any obstacles you had to overcome when you became a parent, or are there any you are trying to overcome right now?